Monument of success
you stand aloof
taunting me to stay away
like a recurrent dream
remembered at the very scene
where I cut you off
yet again and again replay…..
If I could discard this iron chain–
and, like its’ name
LURE it into a sulfurous pit
my mind’s disquiet would regress
and I would seek what I now avoid.
No more would failure’s distress
LURE ME into a vacuous void
full of sighs and one word….QUIT
I am very upset with myself. I have had intense anxiety since my dad died and have allowed it to stop me from trying something new. I feel like a failure for allowing it to control my life. I need to take control back. I need confidence that life will be ok without him. I need to let go of my fears and embrace trying something new with a feeling of anticipation and not dread.