Regret (Fibonacci)

Black
Sorrow
Relentless
Gravitational
Teetering into an abyss
Memories circling around an event horizon
Conscious choice; slingshot away or fall over the edge to a place of no return

I like to put images on my feelings; regret feels like this to me and sucks me into a dark place.  In these times, I find that reading the Bible and praying are the best tools to combat it, then afterwards get busy.  In DBT, the skill “turning the mind” is important in changing one’s thought pattern.  Getting busy– doing something– and stopping the thought are essential to climbing out of that prison.

Fibonacci poems use the fibonacci sequence (0 or 1, 2, 3, 5 etc)  to structure the number of syllables in a line.  The number of lines are flexible but generally dictated by the limitation in the number of syllables one can use.

 

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Borderline Couplets

Life frenetic

Overloaded log

Interest Apathetic

Brain fog

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Emotion drained

Health cost

Over stressed

Moments lost

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Unfilled cup

Altered mood

Broken up

Nothing good

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Hope lost

Frozen goals

Tempest tossed

Empty soul

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Respite need

Disconnect

Soul feed

Suspend regret

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Peace and rest

Quiet thoughts

Spirit blessed

Contentment bought

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Resilient accrual

Battery charged

Cup renewal

Hope enlarged

I really like to write impactful poetic images using 2 word sentences.  It is a mastery of the soul.  In this, I have weaved many borderline personality struggles with the hope that my faith and rest in Jesus can and does bring when I submit to Him. Much of borderline is about submission of self and putting on some kind of armor to deflect the shards of emotion and life events.  Paul gives a beautiful picture of putting on the armor of God: the helmet of salvation, the breastplate of righteousness, the sword of the spirit.  It is the best therapy if one will only embrace it.

I am in an DBT program and it mirrors much of what the Bible suggests only takes out the power that one can recieve through salvation by grace.  I choose to use both of these tools to improve my condition.